I got out of a long-term relationship almost three years ago, and since then, I’ve had a series of flings, talking stages, and hookups. However, I realized my pattern of serial dating at the end of last year and decided to put an end to it, giving myself some time to rediscover my hobbies.
I went out on a few first dates this year (all of them asked me out first), but they weren’t that great. I’ve been putting myself out there a little more, but now I’m just too comfortable being by myself, and having someone in my personal space feels overwhelming. The idea of opening up emotionally to someone also scares me, especially after going through a series of failed talking stages. I’ve been contemplating the reasons why some of them failed, and falling into the same patterns scares me as well. The few hookups I had made me realize I am somewhat demisexual, so that option is off the table.
I’m conflicted because maybe I’m not ready to be involved with someone again, but I feel like I would regret it later, especially since physically and mentally, I haven’t been in a better place ever.
I wanted to see if other people had similar experiences and how they are doing now. I don't want to end up like some guys who give up on dating completely and end up perpetually single.