I have a really deep and flat voice that makes me sound very depressed and I struggle very much with being expressive because in general I don't feel moved very easily and am usually in a pretty shitty mood. Not actually depressed recently, I was but I'm out of that and I'm trying to apply for some really ambitious jobs but I need to be good at talking to people. I feel my accent and the way I talk will hold me back. I can be expressive but only when genuinely interested in something, it feels impossible to fake. My eyes don't light up and my voice doesn't have any enthusiasm if I try to force it, and I've always found it hard to be passionate about people or things.
I struggle to talk fast because I feel always like I need to think everything I'm about to say. I find it very hard to just say things with confidence. I used to have this ability but it went a couple years ago completely, I used to be really good at it. Might just be flatly my confidence since I used to have overconfidence as a coping mechanism back then and nowadays I have none at all. Its very annoying though, people always comment about it and I hear it when I listen to audio back.
In terms of accent, I have an Essex accent. I feel this will bar me from opportunities. I can pronounce my Ts if I pay attention but its just the general way I talk and the language that comes naturally to me is vulgar or informal.
Are there any channels or advice or things I can do to help these issues