Prior context: i am a 20 yr old female and did online school all through out high school. ( at home alone majority of the time).
Ever since i became an adult or in training adult at ripe 18, i was able to get my drivers license and start my first job.
I thought i knew everything i needed to know while i am living with family ( and still am). I was on a high of adrenaline from each milestone and soon after 6 months of working i felt a shift that struck me that didnt sit right with me. It was like yes it’s a new chapter of my life but i felt vulnerable and stressed about everything inside and around me.
At work i am not a talkative person, and being one of the youngest employees i felt a bit overwhelmed by people around me had talked to me. The job seemed simple but overtime it started to feel like a lot ( its a big warehouse), i take mental breaks in the bathroom as many times as i needed and pushed through shifts. Overtime it started to feel less but when i had a change in work i felt overwhelmed by the unknown amount of work and what others would be around me.
Fast forward to now, most days i find myself in an emotional roller coaster depending on what department i am working in and the changes in life that are happening. From the zero to hundred of interactions from school till now ive realized how emotionally underdeveloped i am and how poor my communication is like i am revisiting and learning how to talk like an adult. It’s like its finally sinked in. The only time i feel like an adult is when i am met with responsibilities and with out it i feel small….
This ended up as a rant, i dont know if anyone has experienced or felt similar to this but any advice is appreciated