For context, we both met on a hookup website in May 2025 but found a connection after spending time together. Both of us share the same kind of intimacy and it was going pretty good.
I found out he cheated on me on Oct 5 when I came across his day use hotel account and found out he had booked a session on Oct 3. I confronted him and was fairly calm and I still stayed despite this and chose to forgive him. He admitted right away about the cheating and said theres nothing more than this.
A few days later, I found out again that he invited this same girl to his place in mid Sep (which he did not clarify at all on Oct 5). They both had met on the same conditions as I did with him (through the website) and it hurts badly. Meaning he had cheated twice.
Throughout this week, I had an inkling to check his phone and found intimate photos/vidoes of him and her on the Oct 3 session. What makes it worse is that he used the same intimate objects we used together with her.
Additionally, he had ordered even more intimate toys/objects as well (for her, which I said he should throw away and he did when the items arrived). I feel so scarred, confused and hopeless.
I see efforts in him trying to make things better but I can't help but to feel a need to test his loyalty even if it is immature. It might make me feel better maybe? At this point he's sharing his location with me in hopes to ease my paranoia. Please help me get some clarity.
Don't hesitate to ask for more information if needed. I'm hurting pretty badly now.