I (18F) have been in a relationship with my boyfriend (19M) for almost 2 years. We've been intimate, and lately, I feel like our relationship has nothing left. It feels broken – emotionally, mentally, everything.
But what's making it harder to leave is the thought that I'm no longer a virgin. I grew up being pretty religious and always believed intimacy should be sacred and shared with the right person. Now I feel trapped – not because I love him anymore, but because I'm scared of how people will judge me.
He's become emotionally unavailable, toxic, and sometimes even borderline abusive. I know deep down this isn't what I want for the rest of my life, yet I can't stop thinking – will anyone accept me after this? Will society? My parents? Or even myself!Is it really true that once a girl has been intimate with someone, her worth decreases? Or is that just the guilt and conditioning talking?