I'm sorry if this seems like a rant.
It's just that I only have a 2/3 friends, real friends who check in and plan things with me.
Other acquaintances, I try to plan and get canceled multiple times after the initial agreement. It doesn't matter be it 1 week or 5, of notice. I understand that life always throws curve balls, so I don't hold grudges. But come on. Im told I don't take enough initiative, so then when I do, I'm too much?
I try to go out to make friends. Some say I'm coming on too strongly. Others Idk, maybe not enough? How do you find the balance? Im usually myself, as in I don't try to play someone I'm not. I don't lie about anything and yet when I do open up I'm called a liar and that I'm exaggerating things…
Yes, ive got a shitty childhood, I went to therapy. (narcissist mother, lol)
So, dear redditors that does this fool of a person do to change their view point or mindset?
Also, appolgises if this is incoherent ramble had a lil too much to drink.