I’ve had my ups and downs, and even though I haven’t had the most thrilling life overall, I’ve encountered a good handful of people that I just think the world of. Not everyone I’ve met makes it into that category! I’m kind of picky in that regard! But some.
So, I consider having been able to meet them at all a massive stroke of luck! And I’d really be so grateful to continue to be able to maintain our relationships—to be with them somehow, and to see their lives progress! Maybe even to have part of it happen together! I dunno!!
But, I guess, I worry about being “too much,” you know? Even that last paragraph sounds kind of intense! I fear that I get even MORE intense the more anxious/lonely I feel—the more I try to restrain myself from reaching out to them. But I know there’s only so much these people can take!! Gah!!
Do you guys have any advice on how to cultivate a sort of… “community” for lack of a better word? Of friends? Something you know you can sort of “fall back on,” so you just feel less afraid overall? I feel like that’s the ticket—otherwise, I’ll just be stuck trying not to burn out these truly wonderful souls I’ve encountered, and I want to do that the LEAST