I realise my biggest problem isn't my social skills in itself, but my inherent feeling of being unwanted.
Growing up I tried to fit in as much as I could but classmates would always push me away or ignore me for some reason, so I've grown used to people not wanting me around. (Yay abandonment issues)
This is why I'm so scared of approaching people first but I'm absolutely fine when someone else makes the first move. But then I'll have to keep waiting for someone and I'll never get to socialise…
I don't know how to feel "wanted". How do you do that for yourself? How do you get people to want you? Even with absolute strangers/potential friends who barely know me, I already feel unwanted.☹️😢