I'm struggling to grasp what is it like to have close friends, what's allowed, what's expected, what is okay and what is not.
How often do you talk to a close friend? How often do you hang out? Is it okay to ask them for hugs? What about validation, is it toxic of me to want their validation? Ask them if they like me when I'm feeling down and for reassurance, be vulnerable and talk about my insecurities with them? What if it's an insecurity relating to them, can I talk to them about it? How much is too much? Do you talk about conflicts and personal feelings?
I worry that I cross boundaries and am too much or too needy when making friends.