This realisation is kind of killing me and I just need to vent it out somewhere. My best friend I’ll call him Jacob is just the coolest guy ever. He’s tall he’s attractive he’s friendly he’s social everyone loves him, he’s always polite he’s handsome asf anyone could see that much. He’s just great
We met in uni last year and I’m quite a quiet person so I didn’t really know anyone until I met him and he made me feel included in everything, he’s fr the reason I have any friends now at school because they all came through him
At first I just admired him and thought he was a cool guy but the more we hang out the longer we’ve been friends I feel like an absolute retard but I 100% have a crush on him
I’ve seen his good sides his bad sides and everything in between in the past year and a half and I rlly love it all
Jacob is straight (I think at least) I asked him one time and he said that ‘he’s only been with girls’ which didn’t exactly answer my question but whatever. I’ve also always been straight I’ve never liked a guy before but I really fucking like this guy
He’s always such an annoying asshole always teasing me thinking it’s funny and I think it’s driving me half crazy. Idk what to do, I don’t wanna not be friends anymore but every time I’m around him I just kind of want to die
I’ve always been the type to crush hard but never this hard and it’s so strange. Idk. Life is weird. I want to say something but at the same time i really don’t. Would it be worth it?