I'm a battered wife. For 22 yrs. with my husband, he's never been faithful to me. He's a womanizer, had kids to her ex-mistress, is paying prostitutes, into drugs, gambling and has narcissistic disorders. Been treated into rehab for 3 times during our marriage. He's abusive to me through his words and actions. He hits my head and my body part that was covered so that it wouldn't be noticeable, whenever he's pissed off with me. I am working to help him raise our family, but he's not seeing my worth. He humiliates me in front of his family and workers. He shouts at me, throw things at me, drugged me, and points gun at me. When I came to know Jesus, I became loving and forgiving, putting my hope in Him. But today, it's so painful. Even our kids suffered and had trauma. I did my best to stay with him. But it's too much. I wonder if God only allowed us to be married so that our kids will exist, but I to be married to him till I die, is a big question to me. He always says I'm a curse to his life. And he persecutes my faith. Based on NPD's description, it seems like he has it. I don't want to be his wife anymore. I want to move on. I want to leave in peace. And I want to be loved and be taken care of. Am I sinning for feeling like this? Am I sinning for not wanting him to be my husband anymore? Will God understand me, or will God wants me to stay marriage to him? Please give me advice. 🙏🙏🙏