I (24F) am thinking about leaving my husband (24M) and my son (3 month old M) because I don’t feel like I am needed or appreciated at home and my life is at a constant standby because of his career.
My husband has managed to put his Navy career before me always which I know is what he has to do but even when he isn’t at work his mind is still there. When we got married I didn’t get a wedding, we eloped and he left days later on a deployment leaving me alone in an apartment in the ghetto for 3 months. I didn’t get a honeymoon upon his return either or even a ring, I had to go with him to pick one out at Walmart. Then I got pregnant with the vocal promise of things being different, and my son’s birth was a complete disaster. 10 days in the nicu due to being born with hypoxic eschemic encephalopathy (HIE). Immediately following things have gotten worse, I get no time with him and he won’t even go to bed at the same time as me anymore, I have to plan every single thing and have since we got married, I clean and cook and he never does any of that without being asked, and I even have to give him direction on how to do so much as care about me but he does it for our son with no questions asked. I’ve tried attempting to O D on pills 10 times in the last 3 months and even tried to h*ng myself and nothing works and he knows all this and has not shown a single ounce of empathy or anything and I’m fed the fuck up. I feel cheated and angry and I’m beyond done. I don’t feel needed nor wanted whatsoever by the man who is supposed to be my husband and I want to leave him and my son because I feel insignificant to both their lives and like I don’t matter. I’m tired of taking care of everyone else when not once have I been taken care of.