A couple days ago my (ex?) gf 22f punched me 21m in the face after a pretty heated argument that started pretty much over nothing. We were both pretty drunk and she had started on an ssri a couple of days prior. She kicked me out of her house and then while i was waiting for a ride she called my phone, we argued some more and it was pretty heated, and then i hung up and she came out of her house, ran at me while i was trying to back away and she was swinging at me.
She got in a good punch in my face and ran back away into her house. She also hit me once a long time ago near the beginning of our relationship.
It was a slap, and she realized after the fact that what she hit me for (lying) and the person who told her im lying was actually the one lying. I told her then and there that if she ever gets physical again i will leave. This time around when she hit me i texted her we're done and that id come by to pick up some of my things soon. She has apologized a few times although the first one (literally 2 mins after she went back in her house) was immediately followed by "you shouldnt have said that you knew better." Now that is true, i was being an asshole, but that does not justify her hitting me and feels like a fake ass apology. She asked me 2 days ago over text if we are for real broken up and i just said id rather not talk about it right now. She has been sending me "goodmorning/goodnight i love you" texts every day since then. I plan on cutting it off fully tomorrow but i still love her. Even though we're young and only been together about 2 years we've both had a very profound impact on eachothers lives. I want to believe it wont ever happen again and that shes truly sorry so bad. I think she is sorry. But her emotional control is so poor. She lives her life in a constant state of fight or flight. Would it be a bad idea to message her a few months from now to check in? Do people who do things like that ever change?? I was her first boyfriend so she never did anything like that in the past. But she is in therapy (has been for quite a while) and she just started her meds which i think has something to do with her actions that night along with all the alcohol.