I am 100% serious when I say I want to cure myself of my sexuality (straight). I want to feel no desire for anyone, asexual I suppose. I have wrestled with being unattractive my whole life and repulsing those I am attracted to. It is the primary source of pain and suffering in my life. I have no problems with people having sex or doing stuff with each other. It is impossible for me, so I just want the feelings to stop. I want to be free since my chance of acting upon these feelings is pretty much 0%. Advice?