Me (16h) and my boyfriend (17h) have been dating for about a year, and both he and I have obvious mental issues, like times when I completely shut down, feel extremely sad and empty, and then suddenly I'm back to normal. Considering this, for about 1 month now, I have been having constant depersonalization problems, I feel out of my reality and I feel like a completely different person than I was, when I vented about this to my boyfriend, it was very difficult because I didn't know how to talk about it in a way that wouldn't make things worse and in short, I said something that made him completely sad, I won't go into details about what I said during that outburst, but it was quite cruel and at the time, I didn't understand anything because my mind simply isn't working right, I just I understood when he told me he was cruel. What I want to say here is that today I did something similar again, not with the same degree of seriousness, but it left him very stressed, so I wanted to know how I could control my tongue and stop talking without thinking
TL;DR: I still don't have money for a psychologist, that's why I'm here 💔