Recently my wife has started to become distant at times, but at other times she's been very attentive and loving. Two weekends ago, my father was in town to spend time with the family, I thought things were going well between her and I, but then something felt off. I asked if everything was ok, she said "I don't have an answer for you right now", shocked, I asked, "are we ok?" again, to the answer of "I don't have an answer for you right now". This broke me, I had my first panic attack and wasn't sure what was going on, before we went out to dinner that night with our family, I asked again, hey what's going on, to another response of she doesn't have an answer for me. Something broke inside, I truly don't know what lead to this as I thought things have been good recently, we have our ups and downs, but I think something hit her harder that I knew, but she won't talk about it right now. This broke me, I spiraled in my head, and the inner demon took over my heart and brain, I started thinking if she doesn't want a future with me, can I live without her, would I be better off just gone than seeing her leave? I sunk and sunk deep into this depression and started to tell myself this was the only way and that maybe I should just end it and let the demon win. I couldn't focus, I was a zombie, only thinking about being gone and easing that pain, at dinner I told her how I felt, she replied "think about something else", pushed me further into the hole and made my head spin even more. We left dinner and went home; I spiraled even deeper and was really considering the thought of not being here anymore. I eventually approached her and asked to talk, again explained my inner feelings and shared that I wanted to be gone, she didn't have any supportive things to say and it turned into an argument, I made the mistake of saying "so you'd be ok knowing that I just k***ed myself right now and you don't want to tell me you care about me?". I didn't mean that I wanted to die because of her, I meant that I wanted to die because thinking of a life without her I couldn't image. Long argument didn't lead to anything positive, next day I try and talk, but things are even worse now, leads to another argument. Eventually my head clears, and I am off that track, I want things to be better, I want to resolve the issues, but I am not sure exactly what the issues truly are. I try and talk to her, but I don't get anything back, she eventually tells me she wants space, she wants time to see if she cannot be angry at me and doesn't want to fight with me. Our kids see it now and they are worried; my wife and I got into another argument and the topic of selling the house and getting a divorce. I am not ok with either of those options and it causes another argument, I don't believe in divorce, and I married you for life. During this argument, she made she requests a week of no fighting or talking about it, now me being a guy, I don't' know what's going on and I want some clarity as to what this means, but that's all I get. The next day my heads spinning, so as a typical guy, I try and talk and it causes an argument, I just want my wife back, I want to know how to fix this, but I don't know what is happening. She pushes the week back another day and says I have to wait another day or maybe longer, is the pushing back saying to wait longer because she wants to try and work on things, if she wanted it to be over, wouldn't she just end it, why wait a week? How can I keep the space, how can I give her what she wants? When I see her, I fall more in love with her, I get lost, every feeling I have for her comes out and I just want my wife back, she's my world and I just love her so much I don't know how to move forward.