I am 19F My boyfriend is 5 months younger then me 18M
I let him finger me…in the parking lot after I got off work for the first time. We are both virgins, but I almost feel disgusted with myself. I feel ashamed, and I had bad anxiety after. I have some sexual trauma from when I was 15. I don't know if I can talk about it here, so I won't go into detail, but I just don't know why I feel disgusted or ashamed. Also, my attachment style isn't helping. I, for some reason, want to just run in the opposite direction even though he did an amazing job.