Okay, this is a bit awkward but I'm genuinely confused and feel like I'm the crazy one.
So I keep seeing this meme everywhere. It's usually a "every guy be like" format, where a guy is super excited to watch porn or have sex, then like 30 seconds after he's done, he has this look of profound regret and says "I never want to do that again." They call it "post-nut clarity."
My problem is… I don't get it. At all. And I don't mean I don't get the joke, I mean I don't relate to the feeling.
For me, literally immediately after, my only thought is, "Well, that was nice. I’m feeling happy and relaxed. I should definitely do that again later." There's no drop in libido, no regret, no feeling of "clarity" that makes me want to close all the tabs in disgust. It's just a purely positive and satisfying experience. I don’t feel this “clarity” with actual sex either.
The memes are so universal that it feels like a universal male experience, but it's just not mine.
1. Is there anyone else out there who experiences this like I do? Or am I the only one?
2. For those who do get the intense "clarity," what does it actually feel like? Is it a physical drop in drive, or more of a mental shame/regret thing?
3. Could this just be having a healthy relationship with sexuality and no associated guilt? Or is there some biological component I'm missing?
I'm starting to feel like my brain is wired differently. Any insight is appreciated.