I have nothing on for the next 6 weekends cos I'm a NEET loser (I am working to change that). My friend 28F (been friends for 17 years) isn't free until 7 weekends away and I have no one else to meet up with in the mean time. The birthday of my "ex" (its complicated) 28M (knew each other for 9 years) is on that 7th weekend and I know I will be depressed on that day because this is the first birthday in 10 years I won't be speaking to him because he has a gf now. But I also feel like I will be climbing the walls from social deprivation by 7 weekends away. So not sure whether I should see my friend that 7th weekend away and be depressed when I see her but fill my need for socialising or see her on the 8th weekend and spend the 7th weekend mourning my "ex" so that I'm happy and upbeat when I see my friend so we have a better time? Its my birthday in 5 weekends time and I was hoping to celebrate it with my friend when I next see her so it would make sense to do it when I'm in a good mood but I also think 8 weeks of social deprivation is going to be very hard. I'm not sure what to do?