Help please..
Hey guys, I am 23 right now. Im studying music performance, currently in my 3rd year out of 4.
I don't think I play good enough to get into an orcestra and teaching jobs are non existant as nobody wants to play trombone.
Im really lost as to what I am doing in life, I have constant stress and depression with anxiety about the future because of this. I am now at a stage in life where friends are beginning to work and do other cool stuff. While im dedicating all my time to playing the trombone, which I think won't be a career.
I'm not sure what to do.
I think my options are this:
*Trade school, 2 years to finish, (however I feel like I would be miserable and feel unaccomplished in life).
*Millitary, could enroll to the accademy at 24 or 25 need to take some exams I would need to prep for. Would take 4 years. I don't know why, but maybe I would be alright there and perhps the status is not bad.
*Could try retaking dropping out this year, that way I would save my scholarship, work a few years on the exams and try to get into a different collage/university. Would finish at like 29.
*Could try continuing playing but I dont think thats going to be fruitful. Finishing the bachelor and master.
Just dont persue any other education and go into the work force, trying to get a job that is good pay and maybe build a career one day?
Guys, I feel like I have totally fucked up my life. I have no debt, but I feel like im wasting every day.
Does anybody have any life stories or ideas? God damn it I have achieved jack shit.