I’m thinking about leaving my husband, but I’m scared I’ll regret it.
We haven’t seen each other in over a month. Our cat is injured and he’s been taking care of him, while I’m traveling and a 6 month sabbatical. The original plan was for him to join me after a couple of weeks apart to have space (I had wanted 2 weeks apart he wanted 4-6weeks minimum). During this time apart I’ve felt nothing but anger and resentment.
I don’t feel I can trust him. I don’t feel good about myself when I’m around him. I even find myself wanting him to feel the same emotional pain I do.
When I was pregnant (and then miscarried), he wasn’t there for me at all. I felt abandoned at my most vulnerable, and he still doesn’t see it. He just says I “changed my mind on kids,” instead of realizing how his actions made me feel.
He also resents me for leaving him years ago because of our religious differences (my family didn’t approve and I was scared). I carried so much guilt for that, but now I can see the pain he’s caused me is his responsibility, not mine.
I’m torn between leaving and staying. If I leave, will I regret it?