We have been dating for three years, married for six months. We have had some pretty crazy arguments but got married because we don't want to lose each other. He is very anxious, he constantly negs me about things I'm doing wrong.
He comes from a very traditional Mexican family, I'm white so I'm not used to being nagged about things like the way I drive, the way I cook, the way I do the dishes, etc..
I love him with all my heart but I wish he would understand that it's taking a toll on my mental health. I've been to therapy to help my depression and now I feel like I'm going back into it. I don't want to divorce him but I feel worried about how its going to be once we move in with his family..
He used to have a porn addiction, was actively visiting onlyfans links and told me I'm controlling because I don't want him using the site. I don't care about porn but onlyfans feels so much more personal..
I just wish he would understand me, he thinks my mental health and disability isn't real because people in Mexico have it harder than me and they still do things. I completely get that, I know they work hard regardless of disabilities, etc but I wish he would understand that I'm in pain constantly. It makes me feel like I'm not enough and he always threatens divorce.
He is a very successful man, a first generation immigrant and I am very proud of his accomplishments and always am cheering him on but I just get so frustrated because I'm stuck in a job where it's making me sick and he won't let me quit even when it's killing me..
What can I even do? Im afraid to leave but with all the complaints he has about me I feel he deserves a better woman. Help 🙁