I (27f) have had a crush on this guy (34M) for over a year now and while there was some mixed signals coming from him nothing ever happened and I eventually gave up trying to pursue him and I moved on.
Well last weekend our friend group got together at his house just to catch up and have drinks , we somehow always end up being together and we go into our little corner and just talk, well he kissed me. And I kissed him back and we made out for a while. When we pulled back it felt kinda awkward but not in like a bad way more in like a “what do we do now?, what happens now?” Way. (I wanna add that it was also my first kiss).
He was the first one to talk and said :”please tell me you were also expecting something more?” And I said “to be honest, yeah”. He then said “don’t get me wrong I like you & I enjoyed the kiss and want more but I don’t know…” then I said : “I think maybe we’re just curious but I think even I know that a relationship between us will never work or even be long term”. And he asked : “what if we meet in the middle? Be more than friends but not in a relationship, we don’t even have to do it a casual thing, it could be a one time thing. I’m down if you are”. To which I responded : “I don’t know, let me think about it and I’ll let you know because to be honest this could backfire on us and I value your friendship a lot”.
Then we just went and joined the group ,continued the night and I went home. I’m still thinking about it & I don’t know if it’s a smart thing to do or if I should do it or not. I guess what scares me is making things awkward after but also a part of me is curious and I think I’m more open to trying it now that I’ve moved on from the crush. I don’t know either… any advice…