I always had an “it will happen when it happens” mentality, to the point that I never made a move towards the only person I have ever been attracted to (he moved away before I pulled the courage or we grew closer) and I missed my chance to reconnect with him when he texted out of the blue a few years ago.
Stuff happened in the meantime, the pandemic, lockdown, grief and personal self esteem issues that made me isolate myself more and more. I’ve worked on myself and I feel confident enough in my looks and my personality, but now that I actively want a relationship everything seems to be against the odds for me. I work from home and have very little social life, I enrolled at the gym three months ago to change up the routine, but I don’t know how to approach other people even if it’s to make small talk.
I feel so overwhelmed and afraid of not finding a partner that I started loosing sleep, but when it comes to social situations I simply freeze. Any advice?