So I have a degradation kink and I’m pretty sure of this because I am into things like piss, spitting, sweaty or unwashed genitals, and not being hurt but like being used in a rough way, to name a few things.
But it’s also showing up in another way that I don’t know how to explain to someone I want to partake in it with. Basically I’m finding myself attracted to like super ugly, obese and all around undesirable to most people kinda women. The type of person that makes you feel gross and icky by being with. (This does not include medically gross things like STI’s, or people who neglect themselves to the point that I could be in any kind of danger)
I think the reason I want this is because forcing myself to be with someone I find undesirable or that people I know would find undesirable is like putting myself down or showing there the only person I’m good enough to sleep with, hence the degradation kink.
I feel really horrible in even describing another person like that and I know it’s a really messed up way of looking at someone and I hate that I am looking at someone like this at all let alone fetishizing it, but I think it’s important to be honest with myself.
So with how messed up this is, should I even try to partake? How could I possibly even explain this to them if they asked without hurting them? Any advice aside from telling me I’m a terrible person is much appreciated.