I (24F) am doing my masters in media & visual studies and my bf (25M) who is a computer engineer works a hybrid job. We are 4 years in into the relationship. We started living together this September and honestly I feel more anxious, I started to get offended more and more to everything. I am always questioning if we are compatible enough or am I with the right person. We used to spend so much time together at his house and literally nothing changed, it is also not about the workload or anything.
I just feel like I am not with the right person, as if there is someone who will understand and cherish me more than he does. We love each other very much but I still feel this way. I try to remind myself that no relationship is ever perfect but I think I start to believe that perfect relationship exists and I just don't have it.
There are many psychological backgrounds for this. First of all, I feel like we are stuck with each other forever now and I tend to sabotage it because I hate feeling stuck. Is it because I am not with the right person or could I still feel this way? Secondly, I am a person who always envies other things (other people's lives, careers etc) so this might be a me problem as well, maybe every relationship has its problems but I always envy other people's good things. Yes, he doesn't make me feel special but if I was with someone else who made me feel special I would be irritated by something else maybe. Finally, I am generally an anxious person and what I feel just might be my anxious attachment style. Is it because he does not cherish me enough or do I want something unsatisfiable? I might be generally unhappy rather than being unhappy in my relationship. I cannot really decide which one is which.
Is it possible to overcome this feelings? Will it pass?
Note: I am currently getting therapy (I am going every 2 weeks because I cannot afford every week)
TLDR; I started to question my relationship a lot since we moved in together. I am also blaming myself since I have anxiety. I want to know whether all these are normal or can be overcame.