I find myself in a cycle of ups and downs. Wanting a relationship, but not being paralyzed at the thought of growing old alone. I would love to have a family someday with a loving wife. Longest relationship was only a year. I want the love, the marriage, the family. I want to be able to look back at the past with my partner and feel happy about the time we’ve spent together. I see so many ppl I know getting married, having children. I want that. When will it be my turn?
But I guess if I spend that time by myself, then I look back on it myself and still be happy. Even if I’m lonely.