It's a mess of a situation, but in short she (22F) and I (21M) subtly flirted with each other despite knowing what we were doing was wrong. Most importantly because we'll be sharing a "leadership" position for an informal organisation (keeping it vague to not dox myself, just know that it'd be taboo but not strictly forbidden for us to date), and she also was in a situationship of sorts. This continued for a while until she broke up with the guy and then seemingly dared me to make a move.
I did just that, so after a couple days of texting I asked her out. To my surprise she objected to seeing it as a date as it was too soon after her breakup and because of the problems it could cause within the organisation. She still wanted to see me, but my dumbass interpreted that as being purely platonic so I declined, only realizing it likely wasn't and she just wanted to take it slow after my friends made fun of me for itðŸ˜
We started texting again lately and it's been fine, however I've seen her more irl again and my god she can not keep her eyes of me. She's also clearly concerned/jealous whenever I'm with one of my best friends (who's a girl) and the air is tense af when we're suddenly alone together. I kind of underestimated how much attraction there still was between us after her refusal to date.
The thing is, she confided in me that her breakup still hurts (it hasn't even been 2 months since to be fair), while I'm beginning to lose patience. At this point I really want to see her more (we've been doing this dance for almost 3 months now) and she probably would accept if I asked considering she did the same when it was only a week after her breakup, the question is more if this would even be a good idea to start with? Would it hurt to try?
There's some other things that complicate it even more but if I keep writing no one will read it anymore lol.