Am I (36m) not going to see hook up (34f) again?
Hi everyone! So i recently had another encounter with this person I am very much into. I've know her for about two years, but haven't been very close. A few months ago we did attempt at threesome with another mutal lady friend, however, do to us being rather intoxicated, ended up with me at the hospital getting stitches and not really talking since then. Besides a few weeks later where she said she wasn't mad about how things worked out and it had encouraged her to get mostly sober again, because she didn't like her actions that night because of drinking.
Fast forward to friday night/Saturday morning we ran into the one I'm into again at a music show where we had both been drinking. We reconnected and hung out the rest of the night together. She eventually invited me back to her place again where we spent the night and morning talking and and occasionally making out and fooling around but nothing really sexual, until later in the morning when we did finally end up having sex, definitely instigated by her but very willingly by me. We both had a very great time and were both very satisfied.
However later that day apparently she had a wedding to go to which I was unaware of until her sister showed up and woke us up. We all hung out while while my interest got ready and everything seemed cool and fun chatting with her sister and her until we kissed and said good by and everything. She asked what I was doing later, which was another show, and we made plans to meet again later. Though the plans fell through due to her going to the wedding after party. No problem though. We stayed in touch through text and made plans to snuggle after she got home. After messaging her, asking if she was was home and still wanting me to come by and cuddle. I didnt hear back for 24 hours. Figured she past out harcore, which she did and understandably as she needed it! Still no problem, completely understandable.
I send her a text to which she said she really enjoyed waking up too, she said. She says she'll have her kid and will be working for few days and will message me when she can. So far im very pleased and content with everything said between us this far, on cloud nine, as cheesy as that is. However another day goes by, im not worried, then the next day she sends this text.
"Hey thanks for another wonderful message sorry I am an avoidant jerk
I’m having a hard time again after our interaction because I made a bunch of choices drinking then I don’t exactly love. I’m not on birth control. I’m kind of freaking out a little bit. So if I seem distant, my apologies I am literally going through so much right now.
I’d love to get together again sometime, but on my brain is so overwhelmed
The irony of me freaking out right now it’s pretty unreal"
Anyway so I respond saying basically take your time, I understand, and yeah thats a good reason to be freaking out. Note, I didnt realize she wasn't on birth control until right after I had 'arrived' when she said, she really wished i had finished inside her and then took it back saying because she was not on BC. Anyway, I also said I'd be there for her for anything she needed or for anything that comes from this and do what ever and anything that I can to help. But so far I have not heard anything back from her.
So its just basically has me wondering if I'm complety cooked as far as having a continuing relationship with this person? I am very curious, based off her last message, what others here might think. I'm leaning towards the not hearing from her again, but im a anxious/ avoident and dont think thats helping my out look.
Tldr: hooked up successfully with my crush and now getting a bad sign that I messed up and won't have a continuing relationship with her.