Am I weird for being like this?

Ok so I'm very much attracted to women physically (my type is women around average height with large brown eyes, silky long black hair, dark tan skin, a large nose, with an average build) but I also need to connect with them intellectually and emotionally on some level to really fall in love with them or crush on them.

Those mental attributes also make the woman appear even more physically attractive to me, and I love becoming infatuated with little things like how they move through the world, or how they like hyperspecific things and get all giddy about said things. I also love the idea of having intellectual discussions late into the night, just being together and watching a show while wrapped in each other's arms, dancing together, or doing menial tasks together and making them fun as a result.

I adore the idea of a truly egalitarian relationship since I want to love my girlfriend and not control her. I also love the idea of sending them love letters through text that express things like how deeply I feel for them, how beautiful they are, and why they make me feel loved and cared for. I also adore the idea of sending them stuff like research papers, news articles, or videos about whatever their special interests are or whatever they like. I also love getting them gifts that reference something highly specific to them like a cute quirk or something or a reference to a previous daye of ours or somethinf of the sort. Along with that, I also love to think about women I like to songs (as in imagining the woman I like as the woman the song's lyrics reference), comparing the beauty of the music and the happiness it makes me feel to their beauty and how they make me feel.

I go crazy for physical touch to the point that I often cuddle with a pillow or weighted blanket at night pretending it is a girlfriend and often want pressure on my chest to feel like I'm hugging someone or like they're laying their head on my chest. I often have the desire to give multiple kisses to someone I love or sleep with them at night, spooning them. I also love the idea of cuddling, playing with the hair of, caressing, and just admiring the person I'm with while whispering how much I love her in her ear. I'd also love to paint her nails or doing her hair while we're talking about our days and I love the idea of doing chores for someone and making their life easier or making them food.

Lastly, I love the idea of marveling at how beautifully a woman moves through the world and how subtle details shape her. I should also note for context that I am high functioning Autistic, have anxiety, and a 22 year old man of Jewish and Italian descent. In terms of looks, I have light skin, brown hair, blue-grey eyes, and I'm 5'9" tall and wear glasses. I want to be with a woman who truly resonates and makes my heart jump for joy with every beat. I want to find someone I can love and be loved by in the most vivid and romantic of ways. I want to cover her in a deluge of kisses, and I also want her to have her own autonomy since I want to LOVE her and not control her!

Will someone find these qualities attractive in me and appreciate them? Will that someone reciprocate the feelings I have for her? I've had bad luck in dating so far but I want to keep my heart open for someone truly special. I've also tried dating apps (Tinder, Bumble, Hinge) without any success. The closest I've come to success is random irl encounters but the timing was never right or I didn't push harder because I didn't want to come off too strong, scare the person away, or be creepy (I've been working on pushing harder or at least getting contact info lately). I also struggle somewhat with social media since I prefer voice communication ir using correct punctuation and a lot of friendships and other social bonds fall apart once they become online/text based instead of irl/voice based