I'm 19 (He/Him) for reference and once I left highschool pretty much all of my IRL friends slowly stopped talking to me- I went to one semester of college where I wasn't able to make friends and then failed it because I ended up depressed, so I now have a 3k hold that I can't pay for and honestly don't care to because I don't see the point, I'm not smart enough for it and it just caused me to spiral more
Everyone in my life told me how things would be 'easier' when I was an adult because people would grow tf up- But now, everywhere I try to talk to people, I'm essentially invisible. For the last year I've been horribly isolated and I can't even find a job in my town to occupy my time, and I have no transportation outside of my immediate like 1 to maybe 2 mile area depending on how my body is doing that day
I'm so sick and tired of scrolling Tiktok, applying to jobs, scrolling Instagram, and sleeping all fucking day- I want to talk to people, I've wanted to talk to people, but there's nowhere to meet people near me and almost everyone who 'likes' me on friend finding apps is over the age of 25-30 and only wants to fuck me and I'm not interested in that at ALL considering I can't even make a connection with another living being. I've tried so many servers on discord, I've been on discord for the last 7 almost 8 years (Yes, I was 11 when I joined, I should not have been on it at that age, I know. Save the lecture please.) And almost every time I'm ignored, overlooked, or otherwise feel invisible regardless of it being a small or large server- There's a TON of servers that are almost all 14-15-16-17 year olds that I won't talk in, but almost every server geared towards adults that I join is ALSO filled with people 30+ who I'm just not interested in being friends with since ESPECIALLY the men have the wrong. fucking. idea. and I'm just tired of being isolated and want advice i guess