Hi all. This is tough for me to share, but in college, I tried making friends and maybe came off too desperate but I convinced myself I didn’t know how to make close friends or the only way to do so was to like help people so it wasn’t mutually beneficial. I kind of didn’t read the room at times or idk and then this one girl in my dorm singled me out at times and I asked another girl and she thought the same so I confronted her saying I felt like I was being singled out at times in group settings and then she got defensive and kinda laughed and then I felt even more targeted or anxious and so kinda isolated myself. Idk I think I was trying way too hard to make friends or get people to like me that I didn’t focus on my own happiness and things that make me happy as a 17 year old in college and it was REALLY hard. I cannot seem to move past this as I see NOW how easy it is to just mind my own business and prioritize my happiness. I feel like I let those who love me including my inner child down by isolating or giving up on myself it seems.