I’m close to 25 now. Back in 2018–2019, I was in a very good relationship, but due to some misunderstandings, I initiated the breakup. We separated, and it’s a decision I still deeply regret. After the breakup, I found out she moved on within 3–4 months with someone else. Watching from a distance was painful, and even now I carry the guilt of the mistake I made in 2019.
Over the years, I often revisited the places we used to meet and replayed the moments we shared. I tried to reconnect with her several times, sometimes holding myself back. Recently, about a month ago, we somehow connected again and started talking. As we spoke, I felt the same emotions return, even though she has moved past those feelings. She’s not committed to anyone right now, and though she’s trying, it doesn’t seem to go anywhere.
In the past few years, I’ve met other women, but I’ve never been able to develop the same feelings I had for her. After many conversations with her, I realize we may not be able to make it work again. Still, it’s hard for me to imagine life without her. It feels like she has lost me somewhere along the way. Now, it seems she just wants someone to talk to, which is why she’s keeping in touch. We’ve met a couple of times, and I feel that if I really tried, I might be able to win her heart again. But a part of me keeps saying not to. I’m very confused about what to do in this situation and would truly appreciate some advice.
TL;DR: I broke up with my ex in 2019 due to misunderstandings, which I regret deeply. She moved on quickly, but I never could. Recently, we reconnected and I started developing the same feelings again, though she doesn’t feel the same way. I’m confused whether to try to win her back or let go.