Whenever I told people I wasn't ok with some behavior, they went away and do it behind my back, or sometimes in my face. People have never cared about my wishes or boundaries. They have never followed up on my recomandations/advice.
It even happened with my ex girlfriends, despite being super confident in my loving years and them being really needy, they still didn't care about what I told them.
I can count on my fingers the number of times people have actually listened to me. 8 years ago when I recomanded gantz to a date, 5 years ago when I told an ex else to read berserk. That's IT.
I know when I die my family with burry me, despite my wishes of being cremated. In the unlikely chance that your mind/soul is still in your body after you die. I really- REALLY don't wanna risk being trapped 6 feet under for centuries.
But yeah, this question mostly regards my past and my future. I've been on a "hiatus from life" for 5 years now until I resolve feelings of inadequacy and THIS very issue.