So as I stated, I’m 34 and have never been in a long-term relationship before however I do have a lot of female friends, but I don’t have any friends with benefits, I am polyamorous and I am open to dating multiple people and for any partner that I do have also to be dating multiple people and I’m also open to monogamous relationships as well.
However, despite being so flexible I have never been in a relationship in several years.
And my first relationship was very recent.
I’m not usually openly pessimistic, but I am and have always been apprehensive about my dating prospects. And one time I confessed to a girl who lead me on of what I believe the future waited me and let me tell you. This is exactly what happened.
I know what a self-fulfilling prophecy is, but that’s not why I’m always right about things. I’m very intuitive which I believe is a gift because of my autism. I am able to see outcomes even before they happen.
I logically did everything that would have prevented that outcome from happening such as being on multiple dating sites having numerous female friends and always lending out a helpful hand whenever they need help without asking for anything in return like a good friend should.
I figured that because I’m autistic there’s no way they would date me so why bother asking them out as it would be a waste of time but eventually, I decided to ask out several of my Single friends, but just as I had always suspected it ended up being a waste of time And they all rejected me and said that they were not interested in dating me and I didn’t wanna make things awkward so I didn’t ask then why or asked them again.
However, I did ask one of my autistic friends who was in a relationship why I always get rejected and they said it’s because I lack self-confidence.
I ask them to give me an example of how I lack self-confidence since I ask out dozens of girls a week but always get rejected.
I told them that that they’re just trying to make excuses for why I’m being discriminated against for being autistic, instead of admitting the truth that I’m being discriminated against as it would make them realize how unfairly I’m being treated.
They gave me an explanation about how it took me months if not years to ask out my Single friends, and I argued that if I had done so sooner, it would not have made a difference. The end result would’ve been the same.
To this day, I’ve only been into brief relationship relationships. Both of them were long distance.
Even though I have never given up and I am on multiple dating apps plus autism Facebook dating groups, including Facebook dating. I have yet to be in a relationship for more than three months. My last relationship was two years ago and only lasted a couple months.
I am very positive open-minded, and I only anticipate rejection so I could soften the emotional blow so I can have the stamina to approach the next person.