honestly I’m impressed with myself for actually going through with making plans instead of self-sabotaging or letting anxious avoidance win.
For context, I’ve never dated before (technically I still haven’t 🤣) because social anxiety has always held me back. I kind of suspected I might get stood up, but I told myself I still had to go through the motions – preparing, getting ready, showing up even if today it turned out to be for nothing.
The W I’m taking today is that I did everything that was in my control, even while a bunch of voices in my head were screaming, “Don’t do it, stay in your comfort zone.” I suspect that the next time it will feel more natural and hopefully, I’ll actually get to have the date (WITH somebody else).
Not sure if just venting is the right flair here but I guess its the one that gets close to describing today?