Hi, I'm a 40 year old man, Neurodivergent with quite a few comorbidities, severe mixed ADHD and quite a few autistic traits (I think I'm on the edge of the spectrum.
So my problem is that I can't make friends or friends in real life.
Before when I took party drugs (LSD, Amphetamines, MDMA or Mescaline) I had no problem making new acquaintances, some of whom became real friends or friends even though they ended up losing touch since I haven't been going out for a while, I lost their phone numbers because I broke my phone or changed my number, etc…
Since I stopped going to parties I am no longer as sociable and my Troubles play a big part in that too.
I am incapable of making real friends in real life because I am ashamed of what I am, of my life choices because I am into crack (well free base), Ritalin online 1 week a month where I take my treatment for a month and sleep for a week.
Despite the fact that I take 2/3 showers a day, I can't brush my teeth and it's a real problem because with the products and the lack of oral hygiene I have almost no teeth on the upper part of the jaw but I finally decided to take charge and go to a dentist to sort all that out.
But the shame of all that is there to make me friends or even a girlfriend.
Even the fact of my Autistic Disorders and traits as well as my ADHD prevents me from being myself.
I went to see a Neuropsychologist where I did tests for 1h30, I during the tests despite my Neurodivergence had results above the average for Neurotypical but when it comes to social relationships, interpersonal understanding and everything that goes with it I am well below average and I don't know what to do.
Do you have any advice to give me so that I can at least make friends and succeed in maintaining these relationships because that's a big problem too?!