Can i M25 somehow revive this relationship with my gf F23?
Its been going on for 3 months and was going pretty well until i fked up
The fk up: we were collecting birthday money for a gift of a girl she didnt know/ she doesnt know anyone from the group, only one guy we went on hike with/ and i asked if she wants to join the group gift with money cuz they counted her in the group gift / in my head it wasnt sounding bad but in reality it is. She got mad and dissapointed by me.
After the “fk up part” we didnt see each other for the weekend we were supposed to hang out, have barbeque and have her meet my family. She chose to drink with her family and have her moment instead.
Today is Monday and we went out cycling together, sat on the beach and had a talk.
In the end we got into deep convo about our relationship status and things were going in the dark direction of us seperating.She used phrases like” I hardly make compromises to anyone; i got reality check and started seeing things further” “we can stay together without moving out to another city” which killed me from inside./ we had plans for moving out the city/. I started taking these quotes as hints she wants to break up, so i started being poetic and use phrases like “ u were such a beautiful sprint flower, sadly i took ur leaves “ “delulu land is over and now we sit here thinking what the fk are we doing here together” kissed her on the cheek and left
As long as i got home i was thinking that i want to revive this whole story cuz i feel its not over and give her a second chance. In reality we both didnt say we broke up officially. We were just hurt , she backed off, i read this as a hint and left without saying a word.
In the spare time my gf is such a nice person, positive, caring. I am so comfortable around her, still have this butterflies in my stomach effect everytime i see her and i feel so alive and happy around her.
I wrote her a poetic letter that came from my heart and wants to leave the door open for her. Going to send the letter the day after tomorrow.