Hi, I genuinely just need to get this off my chest because it feels like none of my friends truly know how badly I feel this. My husband and I met in 2023, He’s in the army and has been in since 2022, we got married late in 2024, we’re about to hit a year married and all I hear from people is “The first year is the hardest” and I get it but I have such a strong dislike for my husband. When he comes home early from work I feel sad, like my day has been ruined, as soon as he gets home from work it’s constant fighting and bickering. I have terrible anxiety and he’s always using it against me, amongst other things, like the fact I moved hours from my family to be with him and he doesn’t even seem to care. I feel like half of the time I’m married to a toddler, we have cats and a dog and I feel like I am the sole caretaker for them, I’m constantly overwhelmed and crying, when I cry he asks what I have to cry for and says “you’re acting like your life is terrible” The worst part is, I don’t know why he acts like this. He has amazing parents who love and support both of us and yet he is such a condescending asshole it’s exhausting. He never wants to spend time together, he doesn’t want to participate in anything I’m interested in 90% of the time. Every weekend I try to deep clean our house because truthfully the week is so busy it gets cluttered everywhere, and yet he sits on his ass and plays his games or scrolls through social media. He tunes me out ALL the time, like I’m just background noise he can shut off. Writing this has made me realize I think I do hate my husband already, or at least terribly resent him. I don’t really want a divorce, he financially provides for us and I do(or did idk yet) have such a strong love for him, he was my best friend and the person I used to constantly talk to and now I don’t even want to sit on the couch with him.
TLDR: My husband is demeaning me and doesn’t do much of anything.
Edit to add: No I am not going to cheat on my husband at all but especially not through Reddit. Please stop dming me asking if I will cheat on my husband.