TLDR : I told a lie to my relatives which got caught and now they will think I am a liar and I haven’t lied in the past 10 years and I feel intense remorse. I tried to rectify this by sending a long heart felt apology but I haven’t gotten a response in 3 days. What should I do?
2 months ago, I went to my relatives and told them I am going to a college for a part time course, which was true at the time because I had paid a confirmation fees. I eventually decided to not go ahead with it but didn’t inform them as they are my father’s brother’s family.
Last Tuesday, I got a call from them and I don’t know what came over me, but when they asked me about how is my part time education going, I straight up lied to them that I am going only for them to discover through my mother I am not. I know it’s so stupid to lie about something which can be easily found out, and I had felt guilty about telling this lie. I had intended to rectify this the very next day, but my SIM got corrupted and almost forgot about the situation I had to rectify.
I immediately send a very long message apologising her, but I haven’t gotten a response in 3 days and it’s eating me up. I am aware this sound stupid as hell, but I even ended up crying multiple times and repenting and thinking of ways I could have just told the truth. And now they wouldn’t talk to me.
To make matters worse, I would get married and I really want to invite them but I feel I have done some major damage and they wouldn’t talk never talk to me again, purely because they wouldn’t think how can I lie to them? I really feel like they wouldn’t pick my call up for the invitation because they would feel betrayed. I have told everyone in the family I am not going to continue with the program but them. I have 0 clue how to deal with this and feel some intense remorse which has resulted in 2 mental breakdowns because I have not lied in such a long time and I have no clue how to deal with this. I want to spam with 1-2 messages more but I am not even sure if that would work. Can you recommend what should be my next course of action? I really feel they will forever feel like I am a liar and I have not lied in at least the past 10 years.