I can do it well with my best friend, but thats because I know so much about her, so I can prompt her in a way that'll get her talking.
At work however, all my coworkers know so much about me and I know jackshit about them.
I want to have more conversations in a way that gets them to talk more about themselves and their experiences with life and I want to not reflect the conversation back to me.
I tend to keep the words going by relating to something people say, because in my head that shows that I am listening to them and that they're not alone in their experiences. But neurotypical people don't have conversations that way.
I also want to get good at banter. Im so awkward and terrible at it, I tend to just smile and take it using body language and head cues.
I'm the youngest in the entire shift, and thats at least 30-40 people that are all older than me. They comment on my smile, my youth, my clothes, my work ethic, the fact that I should probably be out there working a better job than this…
People find so much to say about me and I cant think of a damn thing to bring up about them on the spot.
I feel like an outsider despite being known by everyone, because they dont talk to me the way they talk with their other coworkers.