I don't know what it is, with my real life friends, some of them I don't even wanna be around anymore, they're still the same friends, I've just changed and don't want to hang around them.
With my online friends, give it a few weeks or a month or so and I'm fed up of them. Some of the stuff they've always done, whether it be type a certain way or use certain emojis just piss me off once I'm beginning to fall out with them. I don't know what it is, I make friends, we're all good and then I'll gradually just stop caring? I'd understand if maybe it took me a a year or something like that to stop having mutual feelings for someone, but a few weeks?? a few months?? something is not right. I'm not a fake friend either, it just happens?
With my platonic best friend, I love her and shes always been the perfect person to me, we'd spend literally hours talking each day (we still do), we message constantly, tell each other ily etc, yet 6 months into being best friends, I'm starting to get pissed off. There may be a few reasons why, but remove those out the picture and it's the same situation, I just get bored.
I lost my ex best friend beacuse I got too attatched to a new friend, and I distanced myself from my ex bsf, I still messaged just not everyday or as frequent, she'd have to message first for me to do something, she got jealous and started hating on my new friend, and I realise its all because of me. Keep in mind she had a crush on me a few times, theres more to this situation, but a part of it was because I kinda distanced myself, though it was natural, idk why im like this 🙁 I stopped caring like I did, I helped her with suicide and she recovered, and now we don't even talk. All of this because I get bored easily ;-;
I genuienly have no idea whats wrong with me, when I make friends, more so online I just seem to get bored and for no reason either? Like those first few weeks are the best days of my life, we learn about each other and then it just randomly falls off and I don't wanna be with them anymore.
I'm scared about my future. am i really gonna be like this my whole life?? Imagine i meet the girl of my dreams and i end up getting bored of her within that year. i dont wanna have to go through that, i just dont understand why im like this or whats wrong with me 🙁
what do i do??