But it’s been 7 years of me begging and then I finally got to never mind I don’t care. So back when I did care I got him the Adventure Challenge book to help him do dates which he never used. Until today he asks me to start it with him. But I legit don’t want to. That’s just my honest reaction: I flat out don’t want to.
At this point that’s not enough to draw me in. Grand gestures would be needed. It’s like he waited 7 years and his ask is this little thing that I essentially provided to him in the first place.
My resentment is just so deep with so many things he’s done. Even just 3 years ago if he would have asked me, I would have been over the moon about it. But he waited until every little fire in me about him fizzled all the way out.
So I’m sitting here thinking I’m just going to say I don’t feel well and here we are, just dead in the water still.