We have been friends since college and hang out every week. I used to enjoy it a lot but lately I’ve been just feeling different. I still enjoy it for the most part but there will be a few moments here and there where I feel like im ruining it for myself by overthinking group dynamics. I’m like ‘wait I can tell this person knows I’m closer to this person, does it bother them?’ Or ‘I feel like this person isn’t really responding to what I’m saying or listening do they not like me’ OR ‘I feel like I’m continuing the conversations more than others are’ and I feel like it’s unfair to them. It’s not fair of me to nitpick how people socialize. The fact that they show up and are there and are reliable when things in life are hard or are good and they show up means so much. I shouldn’t want more and I know that. I hate when people nitpick how I socialize because my brother does it to me and I hate it when he does. But I don’t know how to stop these thoughts cuz I know I need to but idk how.