It has been almost 3 years since I (38F) have had sex and I do not really know what is holding me back.
The last time I had sex was when I was in a long term relationship with my ex. Since than, I have not been able to do anything with anyone, I want to (definitely) but something is stopping me.
Please know, I have dated many men and had many opportunities (none who have stuck), but have not gone further than kissing. I have yet to find someone who I am sexually attracted to and do not know what is happening to me. I have it in my head that maybe I am waiting for "the one" or maybe I need to just go through a hoe phase and just have sex with some random person/people (that's just crazy).
Self confidence (I have gained some weight) has been an issue and being nervous about possibly not remembering what to do does get into my head.
My friends joke about taking me to a club and finding some random person to get with, but that is just not my thing… maybe it should be. There are definitely a couple of people I want to have sex with but I do not have the courage to say anything.
What should I do? Any and all advice is welcome.