i’m starting to feel increasingly more suspicious of my partner planning to break up with me. they keep agreeing to go out with me for future plans but i just dontttt feel the affection anymore! and it sucks! i hate the honeymoon stage and how it feels like im walking on bubbles. once it ends i always just feel… bleh… idk… i miss being chased and wanted and loved.
but i feel like it may just be my mommy issues wanting to always be coddled and loved and told that we are going to be okay. they absolutely show up for me in a way that hugs my daddy issues tho. i just feel like it’s been impossible to find someone who brings both to the table. is that impossible? am i meant to just be alone and figure it out on my own? is it crazy to bring this up to them.. and if not how would i?
i wanna cry even thinking about this but, i want to be realistic with myself at the same time. i love them & i know they love me but i HATEE that love isn’t enough