basically shes like the first girl ive ever talked to seriously and im 19 and she is also 19 (weve been talking for like 3 weeks ish) and we were having a drinking party last night at my apartment with a bunch of people. basically my friend ive known forever was on my pc with her in the room on the bed with me watching him play games and he goes to my google chrome tab. he comments on how all my bookmarks are super old (like from 2022) and i was like yeah i havent used those in years, then i tell him to click on the "more" buttom to see the others cuz i was curious, he then finds 1 youtube link thats deleted now titled "ASMR orgasm" something i forget exactly, but he fully read it outloud, in the moment i was so shocked and genuinly confused because watching that type of porn let alone on my computer (its a full desktop 3 monitor setup) i just wouldent do, then i remembered back then i used to send videos like that to my friends on discord in general chat (idk this also sounds weird but ifykyk) i thought it was funny because its like a braindead video, but to her she has no idea at all about that and just thinks im like an asmr gooner on my pc. i explained it a little how its super old and i used to think it was funny but i feel like she didnt understand and, she didnt seem too weirded out/mad but i feel like i could detect some weird energy maybe i was just drunk and high but im so torn what to do i really dont want her to think that im weird at all because thats not even something i would do in the slightest. and i feel like if i readdress it then it could come off as a guilty conscience what do i do? do you think i should just leave it and explain myself fully if she brings it up or tell her now (its been like 15 hours since then) the issue is she is friends with my roomate who is a girl i met back in febuary of this year and theyre really close and basically tell eachother everything and i dont want other people to get the wrong idea aswell because its shared out of context
TL;DR:
me M19, her F19, been talking seriously for about 3 weeks. During a party at your apartment, friend found an old 2022 bookmark on your PC titled something like “ASMR orgasm” and read it out loud while she was in the room. I don’t actually watch that stuff—it was something you used to send as a dumb joke to friends years ago. i explained that it was old, but feel she might not have fully understood and could think you’re into it. She didn’t seem mad, but i sensed weird energy. Now im torn: should i just leave it unless she brings it up, or proactively explain more (it’s been ~15 hours)? im also worried because she’s close with your roommate who might hear about it out of context.