Hi! I am a transgender man (20), and all my life, I’ve always struggled with producing lubrication. Still, i occasionally tried penetrative masturbation, but alas, I’ve never been able to orgasm with that alone. So I tend to stray away from it.
Its felt isolating in a way, to deal with vaginal dryness. so lately I’ve tried to slow down, get in the mood and go with the flow to give it another chance. (TMI Incoming:)
Ive found that it’s actually pleasurable to use a dildo when I angle it more straight inside, rather than angled a bit downwards. It feels… nice. But when it tries to reach its peak, my walls start squeezing and pushing, and it’s like trying to pee. (And also trying to poop. Very terrifying.)
Im not afraid of peeing over myself at all, really. So I let it happen, and I just keep pushing… and then? Nothing?
It’s definitely not an orgasm, but the stimulation is there and it makes me stiffen in this overstimulating sensation. Id describe it more like stagnant pleasure? It reaches a level and it just stays like that. And through it all my body keeps squeezing.
I don’t really know if that means im close to an orgasm. Like I said, I’ve strayed away from penetration due to not being able to enjoy it as easily as others, let it be either with toys or my fingers. Im kind of a beginner in that sense.
Is the sensation normal? Should I just keep going more than I already do? (I usually keep going for a minute, sometimes a bit more or less)
I really do appreciate any kind of insight on the topic…