I dont normally post but am very upset, I was sleeping and we keep our remote and a few other things above our heads on our large flat headboard it's 3am and I'm woken because my husband reached for the remote and knocked off my kindle which hit me in the head. I obviously woke with the pain instead of saying I'm sorry he blames me saying why did I put my kindle on the remote. I didn't my kindle was next to the remote he didn't look and knocked it off onto my head. I lost it I just went ballistic instead of apologising for accidently hitting me in the head he turns it around so ITS MY FAULT. I can't count on one hand how many times he's said sorry to me in our 22 year marriage. I really lost it though I told him I hate him, I told him I'm tired of always being blamed for things that he does wrong, I told him we don't ever do anything I want to do we always just do what he wants on weekends. I also unpacked on him because he recently lost his father in the beginning of the year I have been so supportive but one night I mentioned how I'm still not over losing my dad 2 years ago so it doesn't get easier he says his dad's death is fresh mine isn't so it doesn't matter. I didn't say anything at the time i was so shocked but I unpacked it all tonight at 3am all he said is he wants me to get out of his house because I have a shit attitude and I'm disturbing the house and disrespecting the neighbours and he doesnt love me. I will admit I was loud but not crazy I cried I'm just so so tired. He will now ignore me for days silent treatment is his best weapon. He didn't speak to me till i grovel and tell him everything was my fault i once gpt severe silent treatment because I had an upset tummy one morning and couldn't put in his food before work. I'm still paying for that we used to text hearts and I love you it doesn't happen since that morning because i dared question why he's angry at me because I was in the toilet and he had to put his own food in. I can't just leave I don't have anywhere to go and my kid in college requires both our incomes. He also tells me I contribute nothing to HIS house when I give him 2 thirds of my pay evey month and he makes more than double my salary. I will admit I said some horrible horrible things this morning which is very out of character for me but I seriously lost it. I'm at a loss I don't know what to do.