So, i went to a swimg club once, and spend like 2 hours giving blowjobs on gloryholes and it was great, i felt great. Now this is the only thing i can think about and i want to come back to a swing club again and let people fuck me in all ways,but i was sexually abused when i was young and everytime i have penetration sex, i feel used and dirty. So my question is, how to fullfil my pleasure and still keep my boundries and not feel bad about after sex?